At diagnosis my PSA was incredibly elevated and I was stage 4. For the first year every scan and lab showed chemo and ADT were working, so I never felt any scanxiety. Now I’m approaching my one year “canserversary” and it’s certainly triggering some emotions, especially since my PSA has gone up the last two checkups. My next appointment is one year to the day to when I received my initial PSA result of 5,306. So yes, I am somewhat anxious about my next appointment coming up in a week. My support group has been great place for talking through all of this. Knowing I’m not alone and being with others who have gone through the same thing has been so helpful. Having a medical team I completely trust is very, very reassuring. I can email or call my oncologist between appointments with questions and concerns and hearing back from her, sometimes within an hour or so, has also been wonderful. And another important member of my team is my onco-psychologist who keeps me grounded. She’s been there through my darkest days. I do what I can do - exercise, relaxation/meditation, healthy diet calms my body and my mind. That gives me some sense that I have some control, which is also reassuring. It’s a cliche, but I just have to go day by day and appreciate all that I wake up to.