Pain Addict

Hi,

I'm 44 years old and I was diagnosed with 2nd degree aggressive cancer in March of this year with a PSA of 7.6.

I had a prostatectomy at the end of April that successfully removed all cancer. I had a follow-up on September 6th and a PSA of .02.

I am blessed to be healed and recovering. I meditate, journal, and see a therapist every Saturday but I still struggle. I'm horny and my partner is scared to touch me. I have been watching porn to see if I can get my erections back but they are not full.

I've been getting these dry orgasms with painful climaxes that really have me depressed. I miss sex sooooo much. My doctor says the pain will pass and that I'm early in the healing process, and I try to tell myself the same. The last climax I had changed things in my prostate area. I now feel as though I've been kicked in the balls most of the day and have for weeks.

It's not healthy that I miss pleasurable orgasms this much!

I'm struggling guys!!!!